and here it comes. my o's are L1B4:10, L1R5:15. a rocky mix. i shouldn't have posted this, but i did anyway. i don't know why i did though. not for pride, not for gloating. leave me be. but i'm anything but proud of them. what do i do now? i'm at the UGLY crossroads of life. and the choice of poly and JC is tearing me apart. my only selfpraise which i feel a gleee of joy is my 4 distinctions. they nv fail to make me smile. but still aint no big boom. with 5 distinctions gloating at me, i feel insignificant and hardly worth mentioning. crawl and hide.
i've crossed alot of borders i don't think i should have. but i'm trying to change and work for the better. u talked to me, but i don't understand you. somehow you don't see how important you are. insignificant i am but i understand. i've never held u, so i don't have to let go. its easier this way, but i'm always looking back. and your always there and i keep hoping that your trying to tell me something. i'm not crying for you. but i did before. i never will again. believe me you. stop laughing at me, your too ill-spirited. i'm trying to heal, why can't you just help me. leave me now and never come back. not even when i ask for you. not even when i beg. don't laugh at me just because i love you.
You're Elemant is Wind. You're light-hearted, care-free, kind, sensative, and mysterious. You have friends and most absolutely love you. You can be calm and soothing one minute and ragging in anger the next so no one wants to get on your bad side. You're beauty is inspiring and magical.
i can't type the friggin exclamation mark. that pisses me off.. very badly. so every time u see this it means an exclamation mark ok? come on. bear with me heh. anyhoo, wat happen.. weehee, right, i ask everybody to friggin LINK me but nobody did oh man. i'm feeling so unlovedd.. whine.. heh. i haveing mood swings right now.. and i feel odd. i'm haveing all these thought of 6 rush back to me like a tidal wave again. haiz. i have no idea how to deal with them. ignore? or embrace? i hate having this pain in my heart again.. like i said.. shooting me down is better than not getting shot at all. SO if you are reading this, friggin shoot me already haiz.. bye kids. i'm all crestfallen now.
see all this like great things happen to me and stuff and i just apparently DO NOT write it down till like 2 days after it happens, that's just cause my laptop is ridiculously lethargic and delays set up time by like a whole 8 minutes minimum. and people, that's why! i don't do it. dig? :3 anyhoo wat happened was well, we won! (woohoo) 2nd (eh..) for this captainballcarnivalthingi emabob thing. and yeah, i thought it was a great deal, cause it was the 1st sport related medal that i've won! w007. made me feel l337. haha. anyhoo, we finally had the whole valentine meetup. and it started slow and we had like nothing to do, but than we started playing mind games and talking and i just wish i didn't have to go in the end.. it was nice, i missed that kind of warmth. ^-^ happy belated valentine's kids.. ONE MORE THING! wanna wish JOCELYN CHAN a happy 17th birthday. it was nice knowing you girl. :D that's it. bye kids.
v-day's tomorrow. i haf no prezzies at all for the girls. oh man. guilt guilt guilt! how do i face weiqi? lol.. so i'll just.. DEDICATE THIS ENTRY TO O4SG! Dearest, Joelyn, WeiQi, Rebecca, RuiLing, Glenda, PekSan, Deborah, and Veronica, I want to wish you sweethearts a [b][u]HaPpY VaLentine's Day [/u][/b]k! ^-^ enjoy. [LINE] captainball tournies tom. wish me luck. jieling and bing crashed today! hehe.. bye kids
nxt time im still awake at a time where i'm supposed to be asleep, i'm going to say i'm overdue. doesn't that sound cool?
hmm. today was myraid of events. thought alot about it and too much thinking spoils the brain. had alot to say but this is too public to say. but at least i know that joe and ruiLIng shares my view. keeps my heart from being weighed down. ^_^ well, recently, alot of fmss peeps have left for Aussie and i just want to wish them a fruitful journey, to amelia, adelene and haiz. andrew. and apparently LiJia is adament to follow their footsteps and too will Sarah drift.. hmm, why are the prospects there so so alluring? evnth their cert. is economically and figuratively prettier than our sg ones, i still think they reach not a standard attain by our rigourous NUS/NTU training.. nonetheless.. i'm sure they've made a good decision. its about time i started linking my blog. so i welcome all interested. LINK ME! :D
heh. i tot it was so funny when we all begin singing hymns suddenly in the middle of well.erm skool. yeah, me, rebecca and joe just started belting it.. and i found out the black teacher's name! it was Ms./MRS? Samuels.. cool huh? all this time, its been a mystery.. anyhoo. well. playing game all tru SRP today. i'm really not listening. which is unhealthy. both for me and the economy. no me= less skilled labour = no economic growth! oh no! rite. i know.. don't roll ur blardy eyes! i'm boredddddd... byebeee....
ridiculously tired. i've been here too few too little. but than again. i doubt anybody reads this.. so i'll just yeah. anyway. tons has happened.. well i finally figured out how to dl evrything into my hp. *thnksSam* and now it's all customized and everything. i've been slacking wayyy too much recently. i'm barely finishing my hwk, rushing it evry other period and hardly paying attention. oy.. wat has MI done to me? lax lax lax.. and well. went to the openhouses for the polys recently. and i'm so bushed. i feel like the future just rushing to me like a bulletrain. and i'm Sandra Bullock for Speed.. :( just so tired. btw, here's wat i needed to say bout her. don't laugh its my first try. be gently with the criticism pls.
there's always one like her - by me
A constant attempt, a final defeat. Struggling so hard to keep up. Trailing in the fading double steps, she's stealing my identity.
An ugly, ugly doppelganger with all another's beauty and traits. Lies and lies and lies. No opinions, all stolen, not hers.
Individuality intangible, a follower, forever brown-nosing. Cunning and sly, warping their mind, I weep as they leave.
I'm tired of trying to believe, that i can cure this poisoned mind. Like a thief and hypnotist, this liar! My friend, she's forgotten about me.
what do you think? this is just how i experience her uglyness. i really am tired of trying to cure that poisoned mind. maybe i shouldn't even try. .. haiz. :?:
wahaha.. today was a funny day... had lunch at KAP with the 04SG people.. haha so fun. ruiling was crazy again. and she found out abt my blog, so i'm going to say hi to her ! HI! ahaha anyway: well, we found out that JSS means Jurong Sex Skool. bwahahh. ok. no offense kids. ^-^ and Bing came too! ahah it's been good seeing her again. evnth there was no glassknocking or Valerie, it was good to be with her at KAP again. miss the days. see me! getting all nostagic again. * sniff * lol. anyway. i haf the FRIGGIN COLD! OMG! bird flu! wah... nose problem!!! bahhhh... btw. felt a bitto pissed today too, cause of a certain somebody with an attitude problem thus my coined MSN nick. i find it suiting: snarling like a bitch. check the innuendo! :3. okok. gotta jet. have a nice one.
finally.. finally i get my new mobile phone. it's been too long. i'm finally the proud new owner of a new NOkia 6610 handphone. wow. i konw it ain't great. but it's definately better than my old one. wooohoo. all my energy is used up celebrating, i should write more, but i'm lethargic. later.
