wanted to start this on a brighter, more ecstatic note. but i guess the smaller events gummed it down to this.
when u first enter into MSN, and u realize that ur not the first to get im-ed upon, u realize that its breaking apart. i guess i treasure this more than you, defiantely. not very heavy on commitment were you? but its fine.. nonetheless, i can understand ur actions. it pangs me, but i guess its better to have been a has-been than a never-was. and i'll hold on to these memories more tightly, but i'll keep them away, cause i know now the future is calling us, and you've already left. so thank you, for those 1 and a 1/2 fantastic glorious years, you've taken so much brunt and cheer from me and me from you. you'll always be a part of my life, and i wish i didn't have to let you go. but if i didn't i'd be really selfish, your new life calls, and i wish i could not let you answer.. but guess you already did. now there are more important people, whose names i don't know, with relationships that i'm not part of-- but i'll try not to be sad, cause i know that you're happier, and you're loved, and i guess its alright to forget me. but don't feel guilty about it. i guess i saw it coming. it's really alright, the time we had together was good.. and maybe we'll have it again sometimes, but i'll let you go now. and i'll try my best to leave too. thank you, and good bye.
that kinds of sums up all my feelings for today, and i know ur reading this, but don't feel upset yeah? evnthough we won't be so close anymore, i think its better than nothing, so yeah.. sigh. i will miss our bond.
actually wanted to say smth abt volleyball guy but i feel very overwhelmed now, so i'll say it again when i feel better.
that was exactly wat i had. a fantabulous whirl of a time. :P begin the day with a dreary Econs lesson, with a seemingly gay teacher, which belle now hates, though i think he's DEFINATELY better than our gnome.. :wink: are u smiling denise? hahha. anyhoo, than we sped off to the touchrugby game over at SMU.. which sigh, i believed was a major letdown and screwup. seeing on how there was a play in which i was sub.-ed off by one of the seniors in just like one run of the ball. DAMN. i really got to get it right. i'm determined to make the TEAM. all hopes depends on it. than, me, joe, felicia, and sarahw. left early.. (due to the sordidness of the whole game?) to each of our erhm, appointments.. had lunch with sarahw and zhEnle..(she looked so pretty!) at some weeny chinese stall, cause the western one was packed with a whole bunch of HwaChongers or Cat.Highers. haha.. tt didn't really come out right. anyhoo. than went over with zhenle to meet MG!, shilin! at the queenway/ queenstown? library. finally i get to go in.. fantastic place if u ask me, but i ended up falling asleep in the reading room.. ^^, such a lullible ambiance. i'll remember that place. than went over with them to *sigh* JP again. and we just roamed the place. we were OMG! LOITERING! so sue me. haha. nah. took these so cute neos, with MG, mine says JJ vs. SA. haha i love it. then invited her over for dinner at my gran's and that was when the day begin. that was abt. 7+ though. haah.. we had dinner than went over to bugis (ilovemyuncle!) to window shop.. had swenson's, -the cookies and cream was just delectable- and stole my mom's Mango Tango.. than we went over to Marina Square and hit the arcades, with again, generous splurging from my uncle, -seewhyilovehim?- :wink: totally enjoyed tt drum game. which my couz had to professionalize.. bahh.. than MG did her ProFessional THang with the [streetfighterpuzzlegame] haha. i love watching her play.. its dazzling. than dropped off my aunt and thems and had durians at geylang. eventually, my uncle figured tt the dirty nightlife of Geylang needed a bit of an intro to us :) innocent jc students.. so we cruised around gawking at the hotel 88's and motel 61's with they crowds of skimply dressed women and eyes chalked thick with enough eyeshadow to paint a room. we had ppl in action, flirting, crowding, touching, garh.. its was. haa, an enriching expericence.. reminded me of tt time when my dad drove me round there.. ^^, finally headed off home and dropped MG off.. got home round 2plus. my brain was definately dead. and i was still in a Rono shirt. but... like i said.
i haven't been posting in a while cause of the retardosity of my brother. tt's not a word, btw, but i made it up anyway, so? anyhoo.. well, there's been alot of hahaha.. improvement on the guy. but so as not to brush off as stalkerisque, i'll just not post anything. Wink.
but. i'm just. hmm. can i say this without getting incredulous stares and wonky eyes? if yes than i'll say it. I'm head over heels in LLLOOVVEEE with him. hahah.. nah, i was just screwing with u to see what kind of reaction i'd incur. ^^, but i guess in an intangible way i sort of am.. oh boy. class has taken off and i'm hanging on drastically by the landing gear. its like a seat on the wing, and all i've got is duct tape to secure me down. its really fast, the syllabus is torrid, the teachers are oppressive and demanding and the hours are horridly tiring. that's JC for u kids. its painful.. definately. sigh. now to sink myself in to the hunk of notes just awaiting me.
Message: • What do you remember most about this year? the o's. getting my o's. mugging for my o's.
• Memory (thing) you miss the most: fmss. awwww. come lets hear it! awwwwwww • What's the first thing you thought of when you woke up this morning? : why its so damn bright.
The Future Side
• Where do you see yourself in 10 Years?: 3dogs, house, guy, career. successful. bring it on fate.
• If you could have any occupation when you get older, what would it be? Zoologist Vet WonderWOMAN!
• What is your dream car: Audi TT.
*Where do you plan on living after getting out of school: some small weenie 3 roomer with awsome view
• What age do you want to get married: bout 23-26 • Describe your dream wedding: beach. no shoes. sunny. we'll go swimming afterwards. than icecream and some pinacolada.
• Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: there used to be no life without Reno (my leopard). but not now.
• What do you wear to bed? watever i want to. wats it to u?
• Most romantic thing that ever happened to you: heh. i know. u don't. except for him.
• If you could dye your hair one color: this purple blue
• On a scale from 1-10 (1 lowest) how romantic are you?: if i want i can be 10. if not. -10
• If you could have a tattoo, what and where would it be?: a star. blink182. a lotus. - shoulderblade, ankle, below wrist, hip
• Any piercings....where?: only ear now
• What's on your walls in your room?: grubby paint and halfassed posters
• What type of deodorant do you use?: wtf?? eh. oxygen.
• Have you ever been skinnydiping: not yet.
• Do you type with your fingers on the right keys?: DUH. oh no. i type with a stick stuck to my eyelids
• What's under your bed? i don't want to know either
• Have you ever been convicted of a crime: being too cool. ok ok sorry, arn't u just dying from the corniness. 8)
yeah tt's from a song. an adaption.. so don't start making a big fuss over it kids. heh.
been a while since i wrote anything, not that nothing really happened anyway.. classes have finally started. i'm in o4a3. gwee. i guess i'm still so so so unused to writing that letter A instead of S. oh well. and now i'm just torn between i should continue along with my sticks or get dirty with a ball. damnnnn.... i'll do a poll, now i'll need ur help kids, just leave a comment or a note on my chatbox, touchrugby or band. come on now! i'd totally appreciate it..
on another note. i can't seem to remember anything. you can tell me that the next period is en-lit. and i can ask u around the next pillar wats it. i can't remember what i was going to note, say, type,... its like being senile without the wrinkles or old woman smell. haze man haze. wooo.. i think its the 5hrsofsleep days that i've been having.. its been the same with denise. i think she asked me what day it was today, twice. and i think once i said friday. huh. :?:
10, he's number 10 on the skool team. that's as far as my updating on him. I feel like an idiot!
no, i'm not boycrazy, tt's for isabelle.. ^^, either ways, anger is such a TIRING emotion, i can't be angry for too long, or i'll end up a tired bitch, so it doesn't help anybody. So i will forget all who has angered me today, which consist mainly of 2 fartheads who are SO SO careless with they're words. just shutup. growl.
i can't even begin to express my attraction to the band. it was at first to me the usual butter in the pan.. but when i heard its lyrics, so encompassing, so effectual.. so supernal.. ^^ i think i've gushed over them before, doug is such a plus +++ so i won't drag this out. they just rock. or they oscillate my world. 4E-ers get it? oscillate?? get it? :roll: [LINE] serious now, for todays' thought of the moment. how some people's blog DO NOT reflect their writer. definately. u can read some blog which sounds just so understanding, and solar, but when it comes to the person, he/she might just be a real farthead, or bimbo, or nerd.. words are just tangible lies. or it just goes to show how everybody's thoughts are just so resplendent in comparison to their actions and ways. which is really quite veracious don't u think? ^-^ go ahead, ponder a bit. this is not supposed to be insulting btw, and i definately wasn't referring to any of u.. so don't get too worked up. sigh. this is for the volleyball guy. sigh. love ur shirt. its an eyesore, but u just make it all better.. [wanders into loveland]
oh and RUIZ! i need ur link again.. i can't link it if i don't haf the addie! lol, the last one i saved didn't come out very well. so i keep getting the busy server webpage..
: Hands down, this is the best day I can ever remember I'll always remember the sound of the stereo, The dim of the soft lights, the scent of your hair That you twirled in your fingers And the time on the clock when we realized it's so late And this walk that we shared together The streets were wet and the gate was locked So I jumped it, and let you in And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist And you kissed me like you meant it And I knew that you meant it That you meant it, that you meant it And I knew that you meant it, that you meant it.:
its too early to guarantee anything, but i don't want to have to extract my foot from my mouth later either how... JJ has been both obliging and thorny to me. i can't take whether to tear down their walls or embrace them, its just hard to take the transition sometimes, no tie, 3 pleats, badge and chain. but i like the chain. ^^ either ways, i know i really should start mugging for econs. and physical geog. must expand vocabulary, must be witty, must be intelligent, must be philanthropic to others who definately don't deserve it. must must must. musty smell of prudance overpowers me... i hate to hate but one must hate first to learn. hate is really such an UGLY word, its like he + ate. = hate. go think about it. shoo shoo.
yes i'm slow. yes its so 2001. forgive my tardiness. it took a while for emo to find and bite me. a new name on my lips- Christopher Carrabba - Dan Hoerner
Hands Down My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me So won't you kill me, so I die happy My heart is yours, to fill or burst to break or bury, or wear as jewelry Whichever you prefer
