i thought my title was funny. flutter flutter flutterby? get it? fluster fluster..yeah.
i have.. 1 day to finish all my homework and revision. which has simply piled and piled and piled over the holidays. i've finished geog, and that's it.
i've got to finish Silas Marner and at least TRY to dent England England. oh gosh. i hate myself.
i can't stand the fact that i'm such a bloody procrastinater. help me somebody. i think i better get one of those self-help-guru books that work upon improving myself. i think i'll do a to-do list later. hmmm, about.. 3 essays, 2 tutorials.. and a whole lot of reading. and. and and and and and and! and i'm wondering why i'm still here, and why my laptop is still on, and why my notes are still in a mess and why i haven't packed my closet.
skool's in a few hours. guess i won't be watching soccer tonight. or ever.
shuddup denise, you're such a farthead, there i've mentioned your name- hhhaaapppiieee???? you're a bad influence! its. 10:26 pm, and i'm not going to sneak over to your house later. :twisted:
nah, not really, but i am quite busy. too busy to update! eventhough i really really wanted too! well, went for the BBQ over at Jie Ling's after FINALLY finishing the metta stuff, gosh, i got so pissed cause they wldn't let us off!
but did manage to get over there only to eat 4 hotdogs and melted marshmellows ahah, than we played some kinda whipped cream game, which was alright jz that i got creamed TWICE cause of the Monkey JOE! lol.. than lijia left early cause he was a butthead and wanted to watch go for his euro marathon! traitor!! neway, than we got around and started taking pogs, which was all kinda stupid ones hahaha, but i got to be the BoSS woman, ahahah, and i got the big chair! heh.. right, than Jeremy's mom sent the whole lot of us home which was really funny cause on the car, sam and them shot the EVIL-GENIUS-TRYING-TO-DES TROY-THE-WORLD ransom video and dan the fired henchman kept cutting in and sam didn't get to say the plan ahahaha.. it was funny shit. :D
nehoo. than had the lion red games, which i well, gosh, blew up, cause i guessed i was just so frazzled, but wanna take the chance now to explain, SORRY JOELYN! didn't mean to get so pissed, just that at that moment the adrenaline and the pressure and everything just messed me up.. yeah, so hope this doesn't change anything, cause ur still my really good friend! love ya babe! thanks for understanding ok? :lol:
right.. OH! ahah, Mr. AnPan man is our new mascot! btw, Jem, Denise and Me, and i've got the coolest ANPANMAN! woot. i so wanna get my pics from JeremyC. :D than i can load it up. heh. well, had dinner with Isabelle today and studied with her while she shared her stuff with me abt her little rltnship with her new boy- won't say names- heh, but i really hope they get together, cause he's kinda cute.
OH! one more thing! Idza and Faye are the slutsisters! ahahha.. cause faye's got a hickey and idz's made out in a phonebooth! haha.. OOH! its going PuBLiC!! and me and denise are the pure ppl! except that denise is yeah, a pockey bitch whose also the market LAHHHDDEY! oh man, these guys are giving me abs. ahahah...
1 MORE THING! i'm not longer ugh * shudders* [i]mei[/i] with powwee anymore! WHEW! glad i got that off, heh, takes abit of my shoulders, no offense but that "title" was bringing me down.
one more thing! ( i love this kinda stuff! )
What happened in sec school? Your Secondary School: Fairfield Methodist Secondary School. [FMSS]
1. nickname in high school? Charle, Quek, few i don't wan to go into, and qier? ahah.
2. sport you were into? none, i was sucked into the gayness of GB. lol. no offense to all GB girls! haha, tt includes u Yan.
3. had a gang of frens? nah, but the few who i dearly treasured this is for you. stephanie, jena, julie,melissa, samantha, kim, than, fmss- angeline, mg, joelyn, winnie, sarah, shilin valerie. thanks kids.
4. best subject? literature
5. worst subject? amath, but still miraculously passed woot!
6. a teacher you owe life lessons to? hmm. mrs. selen kwan (p6), Ms. Thomson(grade7), ms.Tan( MI) and nah, that's kinda it. maybe Myrna Koh..
7. a teacher you wanna kick in the ass? heh. eh, i guess i'm alright. OH! OH! nah, no names here.
**Describe In One Word**
8. sec 1 year: weren't here
9. sec 2 year: weren't here
10. sec 3 year: queer new friendships
11. sec 4 year: woke up and found myself (jz in time)
12. your best friend was? bestfriends? weird category.. but if we really gotta narrow it down- guess it was angeline (little different now), Valerie (true babe, memories are just FANTASTIC), Mg ( always the solid one), Joelyn (little late, but i still love her!)
13. your worst friend was? lets keep this blank.
14. cafeteria food sucked? SUCKED? SODEXO BLEW!
15. most hilarious school rule? pinafores? come on! its not like the guys get horny looking at our bra straps..
16. wore uniforms? yup. sigh, miss my tie.
17. how was the prom? PROM? wah who heh? yeah, let down! there wasn't one!
18. who was prom king and queen? what the ones for the imaginery prom that didn't exist? than Lance and Ms. Fuzzball. hahah..
19. any achievements? hmm. none i remember. come on. i was late, little crapheaded late me.
20. were you popular? eh. i don't think so. but i knew ppl.
21. best song that reminds you of high school? erm.. the world has open for us? the world that's bright and GAY? lol.
22. unforgettable sec school crush? oy vey! lets not go into this! it was a stUUUPID crusH!
23. most embarrassing moment? hmm.. life is always embarassing, guess i jz laughed everything off. so its cool.
24. memory you'd like to forget about sec hmm. all the bad stuff i had with ppl. u kids know.
25. best memory? during the o's mugging period. when all my fav. people were in a cool little room and we were all crapping instead of mugging.
26. any regrets? definately. with academics. i'm in JJ dammit!, with guys. lol. i'm just being a butthead. with friends. but its over! so who cares! just memories . but they're nice too.
hit the beach yesterday with 04sg! fantastic stuff.. woke up late and ended up ps-ing Yen, SORRY! than had to rush over to Denise's house and the farthead tells me she's not going to be able to go cause she has to go and SUCKA the netball coach so she can be on the team. aahahaha.. nehoo, jk.. well reached only at like 12.30 and got burnt arnd the shoulders but cldn't get in the water cause of some stupid reasons. Will not elaborate, but heh, ended up sitting arnd doing nth, and took some pics with yen, go check her site. i love them!
right. than had steamboat ltr. where Ruiz and Crystal got lost trying to pick up S.Q. stupid! 1hr! taking buses and stuff, by the time they got back everybody was leaving.. hahha.. ohwell. it was good fun, and bloody full afterwards, and with my dad threatenign to lock the gates if i din get back in time, had to rush home and ended up bringing back weiqi's wallet back with me. doh.
nehoo. it was alrite. and than had metta UBER-GOODYBAG-PACKING today.. i swear i got biceps now man.. than i kept feeling funny stuff. oh man. don't wanna think toooo much. just going to hope it goes away... i'm not being mean, but i just ain't right. egh. yeah. and the rest is history. sigh. i don't feel happy.
i have so much to say, but so little time and energy to say it! so much has happened since the last update and i'm too tired to try to remember it all today. so i'll try to say everything i can...
em.. right.. i rem going over to jem's house to play his xbox few days ago.. that was fun, than we watched the OMEN! oo it was good, but the atmosphere wasn't there! cause his cousins kept throwing the pick-up sticks throught the bottom of the door.. Hahah.. but they're still bloody cute anyway.. than erm..
ooh, denise helped me get my hp cover from malaysia.. its this shnazzy-metallic red. awsome, stuff, than i met up with her at jp to go collect her screweddy hp which is alright now, but she wants to come over now to d/l stuff heh.. and she wrote a crappy testi for me! about oily., lumpy kids. ahahhaha.. maybe i'll delete it ltr, but now i'll let is revel in itself.. :roll: than had dinner with the alliance kids and denise had a kebab. which oh man.. the banquet kebab store looked like a total slaughterhouse.. wat with the dripppyyy meat skewered on those stakes.. OH THE HORROR! man.. Poor poor pooooor cows.. * moment of silence for them pls.*:(
neway.. wat else.. right, mr. leow won't be teaching us anymore so he got us pizza on the last day.. heh. i guess he's kinda nice. though he can be a real blow up when he's mad, but he's a good guy. :3 herm.. wat else...
right! had training today and man, it totally killed me, But NO hell no . ok .i've made my decision. I"M NOT QUITTING RUGBY. kids, i so need ur support. ty. and.. sigh guess i just got to stick it out. IT's GOOD FOR ME!
okok, anyhoo, wow. wat a long post! ahah, talk abt making up for lost time.. well.. can't wait for tmr's o4sg class outing, i FINALLY get to see the kids again.. and the ppl outing we got this Saturday.. hehheee... i'm just bouncing with excitment man. totally! haha.. ok. and had a great time with peisuan and amenda on the busride back today. hahaha till that TWAT-HEADED ASSHOLE told us to shutup. god. i mean i know we were making a whole lotta noise, but hellO! PDA? so fuck off man. I so should have flicked him off instead of apologizing. Twat. neway.. another thing
i joined hi5. god. why why again? i've succumbed to the social pressure of society. yet another friendster wannabe. SHIT if u ask me. but i love their journal thingy..well. if any of u are on it. doo add me, its. pepae71@hotmail.com in case u forgot.
right. on a last note. [i]cause you look so fine that i really wanna make you mine[/i] hha.. gosh. the perfect features. stop me from gushing. i hate the kid, why does he look so damn good?!!? [i]my heart is saying yes but my mind is saying noooo[/i] haha.. love is such a song..
COCKER SPANIEL! It's a cocker spaniel. its brown. i think i said it too many times and it just slipped off my tongue. but yeah.. cocker spaniel.. tt's it. weee...
so a few things have happened since i was away. we won bowl champions in the nationals, which is fantastic for me but still inadequate cause who wants a bowl when there's a cup right? than the seniors cried and stuff which just tore me apart, it just showed how bloody much the game meant to them and eh i guess i haven't reached that point where i'm at that level yet.. hopefully i'll get there soon.. that deepdeep yearn and claw for the best for that cup, for the glory, for the burst of pride.. man. i hope i get there soon. :shock: anyhoo- other matters, grandparents had they're birthday and it was good, i'm just glad they're still here despite the generation gap and all that hooha..
and my uncle got a 2nd dog.. its adorable, beautiful, with soft hair and droopy ears and its just this bundle of youth its like a BLOODY COTTON BALL! i love it. its called Rocky and its a *** dah its on the tip of my brain but i can't get it. yeah its great, but my dog's the best of course. BObby Rules All.
right. anyhoooo- what else. right. i guess i've kinda.. eh.. right. i'm not going to say anything cause its going to get blown out of proportion if i say it. just.. absence kills the heart, so screw the fonder. yeah. i'm totally over him. who likes volleyball anyway? heh. 8)
its the very first major game tmr. and i think i've stopped breathing- i can't stand it, i'm so bloody nervous that i'm going to fuck the team up and i definately don't want to do that.. 8first3mths and 1 noob. Shit shit shit.
[i]I must not fuck this up. I must not fuck this up. I must not fuck this up. I must not fuck this up. I must not fuck this up. I must not fuck this up. I must not fuck this up.[/i]
its vs. NJC tmr i think. hope. hope. hope. Please PLEASE do not let me screw up. give me a tri, give me a positive crash up, give me communication-- anything. just don't let me fuck up. this is tooo important. toooooo important.
