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hi kids. its time for another depressive blog post by none other than charle.
so charle, what makes you so depressive today?
well simple, my alter-ego who seems to do nothing but pretend to interview me, its like this, apparently i'm not in the skool touch team.
oh? what happened?
oh tt's simple, as you can see, i kinda suck much cause i'm pretty bloody slow, can't pass very well and am pretty slow to react on the field.
ah, i see, and thus your not on the team?
yes.
hmm, but how come you're so affected by it? i though the trainings were wearing you out, so shouldn't this be a blessing in disguise?
oh yeah, that's what i thought too at first, but its hurting me more now i don't seem to know why. hmm, maybe its because i guess i felt somehow satisfied knowing that i belonged to a team, and that i guess it filled sorta like a void in me.
so what are u trying to say? that your emotionally linked to touch rugby, eventhough ur not really fond of it?
hmm i guess something like that, but i mean after that volleyball fiasco i guess i felt more in tuned to touch rugby and i started to like it more. plus the league game against tjc and the blacks3 team was a turning point too.
oh you mean you actually like touch now?
hmm, i guess you could kinda say that.
even with the trainings?
techically, the trainings have been very fun lately, did i tell you about the friendly that we had with the guys on tuesday?
nope, but thanks for telling me, so how do you feel now knowing that your kicked outta touch?
pretty bad i guess, i feel like there's a heavy thing inside and like i just got kicked out and now all i can do is stand at the friggin sidelines and cheer like a useless pom pom cheerleader. no offense to cheerleaders though.
(random cheerleader) none taken
alright, than are you going to do anything about it?
hmm i guess, but right now i'm kinda grieving about it, and using this interview as a rant session.. so i'll think about that qn a while later. but i think i'll just probably train on my own. while they prepare for the nationals.
anything else you'd like to add?
erm, your pissing me off with ur prodding you damn alterego.
am i? technically i'm just helping you relieve the pent up pain that you have inside you.
are u? i think i'm becoming schizoprenic talking to you.
than stop. or you can't can you? that's cause this session is relieveing.
i guess, now stop being a bitch and relieve my pain already.
alright i'm trying. so, wat else do you feel about this loss? can u call it a loss?
yeah i guess you can. it is a pretty big loss. and i guess the fact that i wasn't even told and had to find out inadvertantly was another painful blow. argh. sometimes i feel so bloody unwanted. why the hell am i here, does it really matter that i exist?
oh why are u being so melodramatic and asking urself such rhetorical questions? that's my job dammit. so, why the hell ARE you here? and does it really matter that you exist? okay i was kidding don't answer that. so why do you feel that way?
i don't know, i guess it just seems that nobody really seems to care at times. and even if they do i guess i dont' really like to bother them with my shit i mean its bad enough that they've got so much of their own to shovel.
oh is that how you feel?
that's how i know the world works.
huh. so nobody really cares eh?
yeah.
alright i'm kinda tired. are u?
yup.
is that why your answers are monosyballic?
not really its cause i want to get back to my tv show..
oh really?
yup
wat show is it?
its the channel 8 drama, "ren wo ou you"
oh is it that one with the bitch girl and the one with the overemphasized bosom, and the cheesy plot line?
yup.
so how is it?
oh the girl's just being a bitch again and the guy just refuses to admit that he's madly in love with the other girl, you know the usual..
oh that how about your love life?
what kind of question is that, its ridiculously off tangent!
so? are you going to answer it or not?
oh fine. well its non-existant.
really?
yup. are you done probing yet dammit!
oh fine fine. ladies and gentlemen, here we conclude another angsty blog post with charleQ. this is alter-ego signing off, good night kids.
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